Sunday, February 19, 2012

It's been a humbling week.

Week 1 is still young (as we don't weigh in until Wednesday, which I dub my 'start of the 12wbt week'.
I've hit some major targets this week. I've done things I didn't think I'd do for quite some time yet, and I've exposed myself in the biggest possible way by showing pics of myself in my underwear - yep it's been a bit scary but also a bit awesome.

I am however, humbled with the response I've had. So many people using the word 'inspirational' to describe me. Me?! It's so nice to be thought of that way when 6 months ago I felt like I would never ever ever succeed at losing weight and I'd be resigned to being the Funny Fat Friend. The person who was always chirpy. 'Oh, you've got such a pretty face'. Horrendously unhappy, unhealthy and watching my life flash before my eyes.
You know, this blog started mainly for accountability. The first few weeks, I refused to give the address out. I didn't want anyone to find me. As I progressed, I opened myself up more and more and more.... and then found myself baring underwear shots to whomever would look at them! haha
I honestly never thought about this blog helping other people to begin with. It was a selfish act. I wanted it all written down to try and help ME. As I went on and saw other friends, accquaintances and even strangers who were struggling, who were trying to fight but feeling helpless, I decided to really open it up. I wanted to show people that it could be done. You don't have to hate yourself. You don't need to be helpless. There are people out there just like you who do it everyday. It's not your fate to be fat and die young.... YOU are the one who can control your future through your health.

I've always been a bit of a people person and I'm someone who's always wanting to help out where I can (if I can). I really enjoy trying to help others better themselves and I'm hoping once I've made it to the end of my journey and managed to keep all of this off for a while, that I'll be able to draw on my experiences and help others.

It's really important you have that support out there. I have no idea where I would be without all of my support. Family, friends, otehr 12wbters, my blog readers, my forum friends..... any person I've spoken with about my weightloss journey has helped me more than they will ever know. I truly don't know that I'd be any smaller than 163kgs right now if it weren't for my support network.

Yesterday, I went outside the square. On Saturday mornings I've organised a PT/bootcamp session at the local lake. It was through my sisters who were attending the more advanced 8.30am class. We started it last round and I just did not have the confidence or fitness level to even entertain the idea of completing this advanced bootcamp. I NEVER thought I'd be fit enough to attempt it. Yesterday, I did.
I did my 1km time trial when I first got to the lake at 7.30am. 8minutes and 3 seconds later I was done. My very first 1km time trial last round was approx 13 minutes. I was so stoked with my new time.... 8 minutes! WOW! I remember the first time I actually ran the entire 1km. I couldn't do it the first 2 times, but that time I did I was walking on clouds. I was so impressed. To have bettered my time is just amazing.After my 1km time trial, my pt/bootcamp session began at 7.45am. I have been inviting my local 12wbters to join me and every week I'd get 2-3 come along. Yesterday there was at least 12 of us. It was so exciting to see so many people come along and want to train along side me. The session went until 8.30am when the advanced session started. Blokes and chicks all decked out in their lycra fitness gear with bulging muscles..... it was SCARY!! But, I sucked it up and got on with it.
Sure, I was the slowest when running. I had no doubt that that would be the way it would go, BUT I made it through the entire session. I didn't stop. I did walk a few times.... I had just done a run and pt/bootcamp session directly before it, I figured I was allowed to.
I ended up burning 1200 calories all before 9.30am. Pretty chuffed with that. That is one of only a handful of times that I've actually done the SSS all in one go.

There is supposed to be a lesson in this story, but my Mum just called me halfway through posting.... so I'm lost! haha

Ah yes, You CAN do things that you've dreamed of. Anything is possible. You just have to put your mind to it.
Don't be afraid of failure. There is no such thing as failing if you get up and have a go.
And no matter how hard you fall off the weight loss wagon, the most important thing is how quickly you get back up again. We all have our bad days, heck I've munched on Bacon and cookies today!! But the difference is I will have a decent low cal dinner. I will drink lots of water. I will continue to train and I will work those extra calories off. I know where I've gone wrong and what to do to fix it.

Change your mindset, change your life. You CAN do this! Believe in yourself.

And thank you so so very much for all of your support. Here's to 2012 being the year of 50kgs down!

P.S. I'm being naughty and doing a Sunday blog hop this week (sorry Kate!). Check out all of these super inspiring other 12wbt blogs. Amazing people on an amazing journey.


1 comment:

  1. You are inspiring and amazing!! It is still almost beyond my comprehension that I may be able to run a kilometer... But I will in time. I'm loving reading about all these fantastic achievements, very motivating :)